depressed.

That one word that we've all most likely been through.. depression. No one knows how hard your life can become once you've experianced depression. When i was depressed my life felt almost suicidle.. which came to me having some little secrets. The one thing that kept me going "strong" was my family, sappy i know but it's true. They've always been there for me and at the time that all i realy needed. I didn't feel like being around my friends.. or even strangers. I would sometimes break down crying not even knowing why, it's happened alot. I've gone through depression about 3 times in my life even when i was only 7or8. But the reason was veerryy understandable, if you knew you would understand. If you've gone through depression and made it through im proud of you :) were the strong ones in life. It's okay to be sad and cry when ever you want but you can't hurt your self or others over it, just.. live.

Another love story..

I'm not one to say i haven't "fallen in love" in my days, cause i have. But lately i haven't been..not sure why. There's quiet a few guys who are madly in love with me right now -_-' yippy. The thing is that most of those guys are my buds or my bff likes them (outofbounds) or i just don't like them. Because of this i'm alonein the love life & i keep on breaking guys hearts!! OVER AND OVER AGAIN!!!!! Why can't i just find one guy that LIKES me and i like them and we live happily ever after until he finds some slut to cheat on me with or something like that :). Other then that LOVE STINKS!! *thememusic*

can't live

Have you ever loved somebody, but they were in love with someone else. Then when they finaly realize they love you, it's too late for you two to be together. Well, this has happened to me. I keep trying to move on. The person was one in a million, the one. Well i thought they were, till they moved away. I haven't seen them for over 5 1/2 months, and i've moved on (i think). I need some body else to love, to take my mind off of them. But, i have a problem i can't find anyone else to love, like we loved eachother!! I know i should open up my view on people i might be able to love, but it's hard for me. I can't talk to anyone about this not even them, it's almost like my dark little secret.. that's killing me inside. I've tried to love other people but, i couldn't. I need to find somebody that'll sweep me off my feet, maybe that's why my "standards" are so high. Because i'm afraid to get hurt again. Nobody really knows any of this, but no one ever will.. i need them back, but it's just impossible. I need to find someone "new" even if it takes time for me to truly fall in love with them, i can wait. but not too much longer.

Life

Don't you just sometimes feel like you wanna DIE! Maybe because something happened to a loved one, or someone broke your heart, or youjust didn't get it your way. It doesn't matter what happends you should never EVER think of killing your self or hurting yourself. You just have to live life to the fullest and take what you get. And if you mess up on the way just get your self up again and keep trying. I've fallen tons of times, but i'm perfectly fine(most of the times). WHEN LIFE HANDS YOU LEMONS, MAKE LEMONADE :) i like lemonade.