depressed.

That one word that we've all most likely been through.. depression. No one knows how hard your life can become once you've experianced depression. When i was depressed my life felt almost suicidle.. which came to me having some little secrets. The one thing that kept me going "strong" was my family, sappy i know but it's true. They've always been there for me and at the time that all i realy needed. I didn't feel like being around my friends.. or even strangers. I would sometimes break down crying not even knowing why, it's happened alot. I've gone through depression about 3 times in my life even when i was only 7or8. But the reason was veerryy understandable, if you knew you would understand. If you've gone through depression and made it through im proud of you :) were the strong ones in life. It's okay to be sad and cry when ever you want but you can't hurt your self or others over it, just.. live.

Another love story..

I'm not one to say i haven't "fallen in love" in my days, cause i have. But lately i haven't been..not sure why. There's quiet a few guys who are madly in love with me right now -_-' yippy. The thing is that most of those guys are my buds or my bff likes them (outofbounds) or i just don't like them. Because of this i'm alonein the love life & i keep on breaking guys hearts!! OVER AND OVER AGAIN!!!!! Why can't i just find one guy that LIKES me and i like them and we live happily ever after until he finds some slut to cheat on me with or something like that :). Other then that LOVE STINKS!! *thememusic*

can't live

Have you ever loved somebody, but they were in love with someone else. Then when they finaly realize they love you, it's too late for you two to be together. Well, this has happened to me. I keep trying to move on. The person was one in a million, the one. Well i thought they were, till they moved away. I haven't seen them for over 5 1/2 months, and i've moved on (i think). I need some body else to love, to take my mind off of them. But, i have a problem i can't find anyone else to love, like we loved eachother!! I know i should open up my view on people i might be able to love, but it's hard for me. I can't talk to anyone about this not even them, it's almost like my dark little secret.. that's killing me inside. I've tried to love other people but, i couldn't. I need to find somebody that'll sweep me off my feet, maybe that's why my "standards" are so high. Because i'm afraid to get hurt again. Nobody really knows any of this, but no one ever will.. i need them back, but it's just impossible. I need to find someone "new" even if it takes time for me to truly fall in love with them, i can wait. but not too much longer.

Life

Don't you just sometimes feel like you wanna DIE! Maybe because something happened to a loved one, or someone broke your heart, or youjust didn't get it your way. It doesn't matter what happends you should never EVER think of killing your self or hurting yourself. You just have to live life to the fullest and take what you get. And if you mess up on the way just get your self up again and keep trying. I've fallen tons of times, but i'm perfectly fine(most of the times). WHEN LIFE HANDS YOU LEMONS, MAKE LEMONADE :) i like lemonade.

Barbie's: THE TRUTH!

Barbie's were first made to keep little girls busy while there mom's slavedover the hot stove and picked up after her pig of a husband. But now a days there "redesigned" figues of how girls are supposed to look: decent breasts, a long slender fit body, long silky hair, white smile, & a hot boyfriend. Now i actualy hear little girls saying "I wanna be just like her" (barbie). Now i have to say that playing with barbie's is VERY FUN! well dressing them up and doing there hair anyways. I use to play with barbies all the time but now i only fix there hair when im at my cousin's house :). So it's your choice what you wanna think about these very "influencial" plastic figurines...your choice.

Guys. the most pointless thing ever created!

Guys. (once again) The most pointless thing ever created. There only good for getting girls knocked up, me :D, and lifting heavy things. I don't understand why guys have to be so insensitive, & BIG ASS'S!!!!!! I do ave to say htat some of them are pretty... SMOKIN. But, most guys use there looks and so called charm to get girls (there boday). If a guy really wants to impress a girl they have to try and figure out how to get close to a girl... not very hard, well to us girls anyways. I do have to give them credit for being able to get so many girls and then BREAK there HEARTS. "LIKE OMG, i can't belaive he did that to me! I THOUGHT HE WAS theone". BULLSHIT! Ladies don't fall for those guys who have that rep. that any guy would be proud to have! There is one good thing that i have to say though, there are those rare guys that really do care about you and can "click" with you instanly... THERE EITHER GAY or in a fariytale story but rarely they're "real".

ps; i still love guys :D

It's what's on the inside that counts. Not these days!

An average 14 yearold girl will most likely look in the mirror, and if she has small boobs, pimples, stubby legs, she'll only be thinking of what other people have said to her. Like "OMG, look at her hair, EWWWWW!" or " You wanna hang out with,US, don't think so pizza face!". Comments like these shouldn't even be thought of just because someone has a an acne problem or naturaly greasy hair, it's not there fault. In society i find that to be "beuatiful" you have to have big boobs, long beautiful hair, a gorgeous complection, long slender body, and be dumb as a post. But, the truth is you DON'T HAVE TO BE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE! everyone is different, the trth is "perfect" girls are often made fun of cause the "lower" level of girls make fun of them for being so perfect. The girls that are born these days "beautiful" and don't take advantage of it are okay, BUT the girls who go over board with it are the ones who make te "lower level" of beauty girls feel insacure, and unwanted. EVERY GIRL IS BEAUTIFUL NO MATTER WHAT!! Even if someone says your ugly, or not as pretty as 'her' it doesn't matter your beautiful no matter what!! Beleive in your self and others will fallow

Alone, Or Are We?

One night i was watching a movie with aliens in it, and i started thinking if we really are 'ALONE'. Are we truly alone here, even though we can't know for sure. We haven't even searched a quarter of space or of our galaxy, so maybe we are alone but maybe were not. Scary thought isn't it, alone in this huge universe or not alone with someone watching us.

Think about it.

?Love?

People always say "I think i'm in LOVE", but most of the people I hear saying that are my 14 yearold friends. Because of there age you can obviously tell that it's not true, because they haven't felt true love yet. The truth is they don't even know what true love is yet, well neither do I. But i know that there weak little hearts will latch on to any guy they can get there hands on and fall 'deeply in LOVE'. SO NOT TRUE! They can't be in love, there only 14. I've seen what true love is and they don't. I once thought i was in love with a guy only because we'd been going out for 6 months, which is quiet reasonable i think seeing as it was 6 months. But, in the end i found out i wasn't in love with him and that it was just my mind speaking and not my heart. So, if your 14 and think your in 'true love', think again because odds are your NOT!.

I can't stand it!

One thing I can't stand in my life is... boys!! I know this may sound really imature but i have very good reasons for this. Every day when i go to school all i hear is "Oh my god i think I love him!!", Then the next day i hear "I can't beleive he cheated on me with HER!!" Same thing every single day, I just wanna tell them to SHUTUP! But I can't do that because there my friends some of them are my bff's. I don't hate guys, i am just mature enough now to understand that you don't NEED a guy in your life every day. Take a brake from guys, which i tell my friends all the time. I am waiting for highschool to get a boyfriend, so I know he'll be mature enough to handle a REAL relationship. So, thanks to my friends I can wait for a BF.

The Truth

I have never written a blog befor, and this is what i think a blog is: a blog is something about anything, it can tell a story, it can hurt people, but what ever it might be about i think it should always be the truth. So since this is my first blog, I'd have to say I feel pretty good that i am "opening" up and letting "the world" know my story.